Leonard...was his name

am remembering, the guy that said that..."it just be that way sometimes..."or, if he was talking about more than one thing he'd say "it just bes that way sometimes..." He was someone I knew a long time ago...seemed at the time that he was from the other end of the universe from me, that's how different our lives were up until that point. Taught me some things, he did...wise...beyond his years...used to explain why he thought stuff was the way it was, and how I just shouldn't pay attention to what some folks said...

Got himself in trouble though, don't know why he did that, he knew better...got hooked on heroin and turned into a stone junkie...then, after that it was hard to trust him, the drug use drove what he did many times...that's what they mean by addiction, the drug starts directing things.

Not everybody knew...he was good at hiding it, back then they used to say that junkies are cleaver, although you could mostly tell by his eyes...and another thing about him, very few knew that he didn't know how to read, I didn't know for a long time...he covered that up too...but then I knew, and when he needed to read something, I would read to him...

Then he got sick, it was kidney failure for some reason, don't know what caused it...but he was in the hospital and they wouldn't dialyze him because of the drug use, they said he didn't qualify, that they couldn't dialyze everybody, and for sure he did not qualify...he didn't really matter because he was a junkie...anyway...I would sit with him and sometimes he would look out the window and then he would turn to me and ask if it was day or night...he couldn't tell for some reason...and then in the end he needed to ask me who I was and how did he know me, so I would tell him that too...and then he died, too many poisons in his body...part of that was his fault...the drug use...I think he knew that...but...

I don't know why his memory came to me today...I think it's been 30 years he's been dead...but he used to say that alot...I remember...